In the book, she describes how she was forbidden from speaking in English and was told that 'impure languages' act as welcome mats 'put out for the devil.' In a note from the author, Ms Feldman explains the roots of Satmar Hasidism, a Jewish sect that is largely shielded from modern life - and one that she describes as a reaction to the atrocities of Holocaust. In 2012 Deborah released an explosive new memoir detailing her journey to break free from the strangling repression of life in a New York Orthodox Jewish household

In Unorthodox: The Scandalous Rejection of my Hasidic Roots, Deborah Feldman recounted years 'trapped' in her Satmar community, the religious sect barring her from individual freedoms and, she says, promoting silence and suffering in their place. In 2012 Deborah released an explosive memoir detailing her journey to break free from the strangling repression of life in a New York Orthodox Jewish household. However it took Deborah three years of 'careful preparation' to be able to put that plan into place. It was just these very stereotypical maternal instincts where you look down at your child, and you know you're ready to do everything it takes to fight for this child to have a better life.' 'It was a decision made in the throes of biological euphoria I guess. 'The first hour after giving birth, when I was holding my son in my hands was when I made that very concrete decision to leave. Deborah also relived the moment she decided to leave, recalling: 'The first year after my marriage was a very brutal year', revealing that she decided after her son's birth to leaveĪdmitting that she wasn't able to act in the way that character Etsy is shown doing in the new Netflix series, she continued: 'I stayed throughout my pregnancy, I was really terrified and depressed through it.

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